Today was a particularly tough day. I have been a single mother now for almost 13 years. I feel like I've got a pretty good handle on how to do it, and then comes a day like today to smack me back down into the realm of "This is freakin' hard!!!!!" When I was married as a mere child of 19...by a week, I made a decision. I wanted to wait to have my children until I was able to stay home and take care of them. I wanted "motherhood" to be my full time job. That dream lasted 4 years and then the bubble was burst when I found myself single at age 34 with a 5 year old and a 2 year old. Luckily, I had lots of supportive family to help me through those very early years. My mom and dad...I miss you daddy...were invaluable watching the girls and made it possible for me to keep the girls out of daycare since I had to return to work thus branding me the "Working Single Mother." Let's face it. Motherhood is not easy under the best of circumstances, but there are some days when trying to go it alone seems to be impossible. Today was one of those days. Today was a day when job got in the way of what I need to be first, a "Mom." Today was one of those days when I just wanted someone to lean on, to hold me, and say, "It's okay. I'm here to help. We'll fix it together." Now, before we all put our "pity party" hats on and sing the blues, I wrote this not to complain but to let anyone know who might read this, whose in the same plight, you're not alone. I raise my glass to any parent who is out there trying to do this by yourself. It ain't easy, but hang in there, and do the best you can. I am, and I have two blessings in my life to prove it.
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